Yesterday, while at work I had an interesting experience. Some of you may know that I work at LDS Hospital in the Gift Shop. As I was putting the finishing touches on a display a somber faced nurse gave me a piece of paper about the size of an index card with what looked to be a patients wrist band photocopied onto it. As she handed me the paper she softly said “Im here for the Angel”. A little confused at her odd request I took the paper, smiled, and said “let me see if it is in the back”. I knew my supervisor would be able to shed some light on the matter and point me in the right direction. I walked to her office in the back room and handed her the paper. She must have sensed my confusion because with out even looking at the writing she said, “This is a request for The Angel of Hope, it is given to a mother who has lost her baby”. As she began telling me where to find this special item I could feel a knot begin to form in my throat. My eyes stung as I fought back the urge to burst into tears and my heart ached with the thought of losing something so incredibly precious. It ached for the family who wouldn’t get to know this little life. But mostly, it ached for the mother whose arms were empty. Who had, more than likely, been to hell and back giving life to a spirit so special that her time on this Earth would only be measured In Hours. In Minutes. In Breaths. As I sit here with my little Sophie wiggling around on my lap and pushing her hands on the keyboard, I cannot explain the immense love and sorrow that I feel for this woman, or any woman who is given this very sacred duty to bear. Im so very grateful for the Savior and my knowledge and “Hope” that through Him all that was lost will be restored and that every mother who has paid such a heavy price will once again hold her sweet little baby in her arms.

Recap: First 3 Months in Pictures, lots of pictures

At the Hospital

Meeting the grandparents for the first time

This picture makes me laugh so hard!

2nd Day home, just catchin some rayes

First trip to the Ranch

Sophie and Tyson with Paige

Tyson...I love this little guy!

Jax is so sweet with the babies, I love to watch him around them


Robby putting Sophie in her jamies
Notice they are on backwards :) Dads are cute!
We've got a mouth breather

We taught her Thriller and she's actually pretty good at it, im surprised she picked it up so early

Sophie with "Grandma Great"

Tyson and Sophie's Blessing Day

Poor Tys...all these yucky girls
Brielle Doty-Jan 18, Tyson-Jan 23, and Sophie-Jan 30

with uncle Rob

Grandpa Eastman

Two very happy grandparents

Her dress was so cute, Thanks Rob and Jenny

CourtRyann

First trip to Idaho

Great Grandma Andreason

Sophie is head over heals in love with her dad. Just the sound of his voice can wake her from a sound sleep or make her laugh hysterically.

Easter

Sophie and her uncle Bret who was visiting from Afghanistan

See uncle Kim, I'm growing into my eyes....sort of!

If she could talk she would probably say "Mom, take this ridiculous hat off me"

The Big Switch-A-Roo

Dan's transplant

Sorry, no pictures of the patients. They both felt so crappy that they probably would have broken the camera over my head if I tryed to get a picture. I did get some cute pics of Wyatt though.

Sophie and her best cousin Wyatt

see how she looks at him, so cute

Watching Kaden Race

Just hanging out at Grandma's house

She is such a happy girl!

I love this little girl so much. She has completely changed my whole world. Im so thankful for every day I get to spend with her. I've never been happier and I feel like I'm finally doing what was meant for me all along. Being a mom has changed me for the best in ways I cant even begin to describe. It has brought peace to my life and a calm steadiness to my heart. I know who I am, I know why I am here, I know what is important, and I know that my heavenly father loves and trusts in me. I am at peace. Life is wonderful!

I will update soon.......

First Photo Shoot...3 weeks

I love this little girl!

Hospital Picture

Very first Sunday...and she isn't very happy about it! Sometimes Robby does the same thing befor church.

Yes, I'm one of those mothers that puts over sized flowers on my child's head. No apologies here, I think it is cute!

Watching Motorcross With Her Dad

Jaundice

Our poor little baby had a pretty tough time getting here. She was face up and sideways. Every time I pushed, her head would get stuck on my pubic bone and her shoulder on my pelvis. The doctor tried and tried to turn her but had no luck and it actually got really intense. He had to use the forceps and I have some really "pretty" incisions to show for it. I had a stage 4 episiotomy (ouch!!!!) Because of the bruising on her head she was pretty jaundice. Her doctor put on lights for 48 hours. They would bring her to us just long enough to feed her and then she had to go back under the lights, even though we got to see her every few hours it was hard and we missed her a ton.They would bring her to us on the Bili Blanket.

She looked like a little glow worm.

She is finally Here!!!!!

Sophie Claudette Eastman

Jan. 30, 2009
6 lbs 4 oz

18 inches

She has the BIGGEST eyes!

Friday morning we checked into the hospital at 7:30 am. They started my iv at about 8:15 and the doctor broke my water at around 9 am and told us to get comfortable because it would probably be a long day. I had brought DVDs, both our ipods, snacks for Robby, and some magazines.....totally prepared for the long haul. I guess Sophie had another plan!





When I checked into the hospital I was almost dilated to a 4. I progressed so fast that I was a 10 and pushing by 12:30. Sophie was here at 1:49.

Best Feeling in the Whole World!

Sophie's Room

Its not done yet but this is what we've got so far. We still need to hang the chandelier (I know, every baby needs a chandelier right?) Im still looking for a book shelf, and then Im going to put some vinyl lettering over her crib...I just need to figure out what poem/quote to use. I really didnt want to spend very much money so there are some things I would have loved to do that didnt happen, maybe later on I guess! My grandma made the doll on the shelf out of one of my great grandma's hand embroidered pillow cases, the mirror came all the way from my living room, and the lamp I got when I went to college...I just stole the lamp shade off one of the side lamps in my bed room that I knocked over and broke and added the ribbon and flower.

The bear on the rocking chair kind of came from my dad I guess. When I was a little girl, my mom was in the hospital. My dad took me to the store and helped me pick it out to take to my mom. After he died I kind of just kept it for myself because it reminded me of him. I think of him ever time I see it.

A cheese cake to die for!

For the longest time I have been trying to find a good cheese cake recipe. It took a while.....and some trial and error, but I think I've finally got something to work with. I've made this one three times and it keeps getting better and better. The best part is that it doesn't crack! Anyway, If you want the recipe let me know.